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Locked Out

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I try to re-enter the 1000th password I can remember and I am still locked out. I scan my brain trying to recall my most recently updated password. Passwords are a puzzle I will never solve. There are too many. Four different email accounts, countless newsletters and listserves. I can never seem to unlock the code. I am trapped.

I try again.

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"Forgot your password?"

The glaringly familiar and unhelpful phrase. It taunts me and mocks me. I am always forgetting my password.

March has been a long haul and at many times I have reached a wall and been "locked out". Locked out of creativity, free time, quality writing, remembering to do something on my endless to-do list. But luckily for me, I will reset my passwords and be logged in soon enough.

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  1. sspelicMarch 26, 2019 at 6:37 PM

    I feel you on this one for real! Passwords are also the bane of my existence. But they're not going away anytime soon. Like the way you connect that experience to other ways you feel locked out of desirable & necessary things.

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  2. SallyMarch 26, 2019 at 7:40 PM

    I really like how you placed the words on the page. It added to the frustration and tension you were feeling. And the perfect last line!

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