Today I am grateful for a snow day. I have just come back from back to back trip. The first, an amazing trip to Europe with my students, and the second a funeral. I've been jet lagged and emotional and I am grateful to have space and time to myself to rest and recharge today. Last week due to all the travel and grief, I was very stuck and felt on edge. I felt easily irritated and found myself neglecting grades in order to try to be present for my family as they grieved. I felt like a bad teacher. I often feel this difficult balance and sometimes find it difficult to be a good teacher and good friend, relative, significant other. I feel sometimes when I feel I'm doing really well as a teacher, my personal life is not as nourished and I don't feel my relationships are being well cultivated. But to the opposite, if I feel I am being a good friend/daughter/significant other, I am not necessarily a good teacher. I am so grateful to have today to pause and rest and reflect. I h
Were you in my classroom this morning?? :)
ReplyDeleteHaha. Glad I wasn’t alone in feeling this. Thanks for reading Sharon!
DeleteYesterday my students came in almost to the point of being comatose. Today is a different story! Hang in there teachers (myself included) - 3 more days!!!
ReplyDeleteYes it’s interesting how students can vary from day to day. Thanks for reading!
DeleteI feel you. I find myself sitting down when I am frustrated and about to give my students "the lecture." I'm a PE specialist so that means getting on the floor mostly and it does calm me a bit. It creates that space to do what you illustrate in your last lines: "Pause/ Breathe deep/Take a minute/ Release the tension"
ReplyDeleteThank you for reading Sherri! Trying to remind myself this refrain as we close out the month.
DeleteOh 3 more days! I think we are all feeling it and, yes, when I lose some of my morning prep and feel rushed it throws everything else off. I enjoyed your post in poem form. Thanks for sharing!
ReplyDeleteThank you for reading! I definitely feel less alone knowing other teachers face difficult moments and days as well.
DeleteOh, that last line was "bitter truth" - the day has only just begun! May things have improved and your feet be up, after a long day, resting.
ReplyDeleteThank you for reading Maureen! I appreciate your positive thoughts.
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