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Thirteen

Yesterday was your birthday
I sent you a message
But it didn't feel the same

We were so close so fast
But not for long
It felt sudden and real
But a part of me wondered how long it would last

I hadn't had a friend so close and so fast
It was default
Every moment together
Spending time with your family
Watching your dog

We shared everything
Clothes
Secrets
Nannying jobs
Boys

You hurt me a little
You hurt her a lot
I feel healed and wonder if it could be better again
But for her I hesitant

I ripped off the band-aid and didn't look back
Today I wonder
What would've been
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